Sunday, February 10, 2008

"Die today, coz tomorrow has no love for you. And life without love is like death anyway."

.. her shadow stretched out from behind, as the moonlight lingered around her silent presence.

He walked up to the wall, a white one in that blackened room. A button switch to its side, next to a Dennis Stock. A hunched man in a black overcoat walked a misty New York street, cigarette hanging between his lips and eyes grimacing the cold morning. He could nt see the picture in the darkness, but he knew it enough. His gray finger pushed out at the switch, the light turned on.

A blanket snatched, bared against the light she sat, chin between her knees, arms folded around them. She swayed back and forth nervously, measuring her breaths. The cigarette lay on the floor next to her, dying its slow meandering death. It had another two minutes in it, as it ashed itself.

In a quiet room which had but a light bulb under cover, words fallen to the ground and eyes robbed of their pride.. the other pair of knees buckled to the ground near her.

When routine bites hard
And ambitions are low
And resentment rides high
But emotions wont grow

And we re changing our ways, taking different routes

Then love, love will tear us apart again

(Joy Division)


For years now, this image haunted me. There is a strange sense of apparition to it. A cold man in a big city wondering what his words mean. I saw it for the first time, when I did nt know who James Dean was. Years later, I saw it again.. quite frequently. Then I stopped. Yesterday, I thought I saw it again, but it did nt ve Times Square or Dean, it was not even Dennis Stock. It was a movie about Ian Curtis.

Anton Corbijn is a photographer who clicks famous pictures of famous people, in black and white. Ironically. The movie was an extension of this occupation.

It is a lovely movie, if you know what you are looking for. It, more importantly, introduces you to the music of an ole English band called Joy Division. And a wonderful actor named Sam Riley.

It has been that sort of week, when you realize there's so much around you.. that you did nt know happened.

And since we are talking about Brit bands and good lyricists, I bought this CD yesterday which is quite endearing. Makes for a good post break-up gift, may be.

6 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

"..light turned on.
"A blanket snatched, bared against the light she sat, chin between her knees, arms folded around them."
what a line!

by the way...
"when you realize there's so much around you.. that you did nt know happened."
does that fill one with genuine wonder or helpless exasperation?

6:33 PM  
Blogger Sharad Ragas said...

I would say there are a lotta things that happen in this world everyday without my knowledge =p

..so it is not something that surprises or exasperates(!!) me. It is jus a moment of realization, about your preoccupations in life.

I think.

7:26 PM  
Blogger P said...

Dude!
Something happened yesterday, it might not have been around you. But, I hope you noticed; I'll give you a clue, it involved the "most influential cricketer after Bradman". And, it should have not surprised you, and definitely not have exasperated you. Then there were three happenings by one man in one over which would have delighted you in no uncertain terms, but all this is if you have been aware of what was happening. :P

9:06 PM  
Blogger Sharad Ragas said...

Dude!! I mean, DUDDEEE!!

What do you mean, I say! What do you mean when you say.. "I hope you noticed", such things I do notice, and as you also know, such things do not happen without my knowledge.

I stand insulted.

Very so.

10:12 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

ur writing has become so erratic now... u keep switching between scriptwriting and poetry. what happened to u???

i never had james dean on my wall, what r u talking about? how many girls do u know anyway? :))

6:33 PM  
Blogger Sharad Ragas said...

Ah, it was fiction.. I swear. All of it.

7:21 PM  

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